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Oct. 14th, 2011


Why are you so cruel?

I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. Happiness? No. Anger? Maybe. I don't know why...... but you always make me feel bad. You're sopposed to be my friend...... I try to always be there for you....... but you never are there for me. You say that you love to see me happy, but hey, I'm not. You're doing the opposite. Saying 'Thank you, you made my day(:" On your status to specific people (not me) makes me feel like shit. It makes me feel like I didn't make you smile..... like I'm worthless........ like I'm....... nothing special. And it make me mad...... that you don't even consider the feelings of the people around you. You just say it, but you don't notice...... you're hurting me. And not just me. Others too. Others who love you just like the people who made you smile. It's not my fault I'm not in every damn class with you. It's not my fault I don't know what's going on, and that I wasn't there to make you smile. I love to make you smile. But if you're just going to belittle others like that, then you shouldn't even post shit on your status. You don't even see that you're harming me. It's just you, and the whole world revolves around you. You don't care. You say you do, but you don't. You know the pain that he's causing you? Well, I'm feeling what you are feeling right now. You're so damn blind. I hope you change this point of view, cause it's killing me inside. I'm going to go cry now, because of your fault.


Jul. 29th, 2011


There you are....

 I could hear my quiet breath as I lay comfortably in bed. Everything was silent. And pitch black. The only light was coming from my window. The moon decided to cast a soft glow on me. I opened my eyes, trying to adjust to the darkness. It wasn't working. I sighed, and closed my eyes. I was starting to fall into deep slumber when I felt a soft breath on my neck. My eyes flashed open. I was starting to breathe harshly. My heart was pounding. I felt the constant racing throughout my whole body. 'Its me," I heard a masculine voice whisper. I relaxed. An arm grasped around my waist and pulled me into a body of warmth. I felt a tender, melting kiss on my neck. I shivered. It was him. My love. A smile sprawled across my face in the darkness. My hand shifted and was soon wrapped around his neck. He pulled me closer to him. "I was afraid you wouldn't come...." I whispered. He laughed softly. "I'm sorry. I would have come earlier. My parent's wouldn't go to sleep." He murmured. "It's okay. I'm glad you're finally here. I really missed you..." I spoke in a hushed tone. "Tell me about it." He replied quietly. I felt his body even more closer to mine. I moved my face forward, and aimed at his lips. I had aimed correctly on my first try. His soft, steamy lips moved gently against my bruised ones. His hand caressed my lower back. I could hear our hearts pounding loudly in the silent darkness. A strange feeling was gathering up on my cheeks. Heat swelled up, creating a tickling sensation throughout the apples of my cheeks. I quickly pulled away from him and sat right up. "Damn. I was blushing again." I mumbled in the darkness. I could feel him sitting up next to me. "Are your parents home tonight?" He whispered in my ear as he wrapped his arms around me. "No. They went on some 4-day vacation" I said as I rubbed my forehead. They claimed they didn't have enough money to take me, but I could care less.  "Oh, that's great. We won't have to worry about any stalkers peeking on us." He said as he laughed and kissed my neck. I giggled and pushed his arms off of me. I climbed off my bed and landed safely on the icy floor. "Were are you going?" He demanded. "I'm thirsy" I yawned quietly. "Noooo.... don't go. Come back here..." He whined. I laughed and hopped onto the bed, crashing into him. He grabbed me, and we collided into a kingdom of pillows. "I love you." He whispered at me. "I love you too." I said back, smiling. I felt something on my lips, and I noticed he was kissing me. I wrapped my arms around his neck. His arms were wrapped around my waist. I wish moments like this could last forever. But they sadly didn't. He pulled away and put his forehead against mine. I hugged him tightly, never intending to let go. "Goodnight, love" I whispered. "Good night, boo. Sweet dreams." I smiled and kissed his cheek. I could tell he smiled. I closed my eyes, my arms still holding onto him.